OMG 😱 Been all around this Void business for some time now too. Michelle, I think what you experienced might have been the abandonment horror feeling that you had as an infant, which has been walled off from consciousness until such a time (now) when you have developed the spiritual strength to integrate this feeling of infinite ultimate separation. Maybe motherhood gave you the access and strength to meet your pre-verbal implicit memory of emptiness. I don't think the Void is the final destination. I think it's the portal to cosmic union, if you can bear the acute horror until it transmutes. For in depth explication, read Trauma and the Soul by Donald Kalsched. Or just don't breathe too deeply ever again 😆 Good luck! 💜💜💜
This is so great, Michelle! I was going to cut and paste my favorite lines here but there are too many. Thank you for writing this <3
OMG 😱 Been all around this Void business for some time now too. Michelle, I think what you experienced might have been the abandonment horror feeling that you had as an infant, which has been walled off from consciousness until such a time (now) when you have developed the spiritual strength to integrate this feeling of infinite ultimate separation. Maybe motherhood gave you the access and strength to meet your pre-verbal implicit memory of emptiness. I don't think the Void is the final destination. I think it's the portal to cosmic union, if you can bear the acute horror until it transmutes. For in depth explication, read Trauma and the Soul by Donald Kalsched. Or just don't breathe too deeply ever again 😆 Good luck! 💜💜💜